End of July

There's a taiwanese drama called, 恶作剧之吻. I've been watching it for a week i think. And in that week, something came along too. I have to admit it here, i would like to tell you everything here, you really did make me happy. It's been a long time, i don't feel that happy already. Since i came here, i never feel that happy before.
I really really hope that our conversations never ends, as how sweet we were, how happy we were. And yea, this is my blog, it's really been a long time, i didn't write my blog already, even take a look of it. I just feel like want to write out everything in here, and to tell you everything also.
The first thing i wanna tell you is, i really miss you so much, i really really do. :'( I just can't ever deny it. Denying it's just like lying to myself. I really really hope that everything you said to me is true. Instead of hoping, of coarse i want them to be true. But, i really don't know. At the night when you're at the wedding dinner, remember what you did you tell me? You said: 'I don't know if it's the alcohol, but i really want you here now.' When i read this, i was really happy and touched too. And also since that night, my tears drop every night, everyday, even in the church. It's not your fault though, it's just i'm really scare, i really scare that i will hurt or lost someone who i really care about, who will ever cares about me too.
Care, i didn't feel it for a damn long time already until i met you. This is what i'm talking about. I'm really really scare. I'm really scare that you will never care about me anymore.
And about you and kuo, i'll admit it, yes, i do feel jealous. I just felt confuse that you're just still being sweet with him, but the way you treated me, it's just like we're....but although we're not, this i know. But, i just feel very confused. I feel like, 'Why?' Because you're like being sweet to 2 guys, who...you.
Okay..i have to say sorry to you. I know you'll think that i think too much, but i'm just telling what i felt. But seriously, i really miss you so much. Besides of saying the 3 words, i miss you, i don't know if i should say the another 3 words, again. I'm just scare, i guess there's an explanation in my status in facebook. Once again, i'm sorry, if this annoyed you.
I.M.Y. ♥