Sigh.. Now, yes, i am in U.S.A. A big country where is so damn faraway from my hometown, home country, Malaysia, where i miss a lot. I really miss it so much, especially my friends.
It's been a while that i didn't care someone like this already. And, it's also been a long time that i didn't feel that happy already. Really..you really made my day. We really do have a lot of common things. I don't know if you're the right one or not, but, you just really make me happy. It's been months already since i came over here, after i came here, i never happy as before already anymore, but with you, and because of you, everything just goes back to normal again. The true me comes out again.
REally..i really really miss you. Honestly, my head just can't stop thinking about you. I don't know if i really fall in love with you. I don't know too.
About what i keep on asking you, i want to know the answer because, i have the same thought as you too, i really hope that you can be by my side and be with me. I miss you so much, really.
I'll just once again wish you good luck again Good luck my dear!! LOve and miss you! :)
Monday, August 9, 2010
Once again...'it' cracked! :(
It's been 2 weeks, i don't really know what happened to me, what i'm thinking about, even myself. It's been a long time that i didn't use my blog already. I just thought of it few days ago, and now, i feel that this is the only place that i can write everything down of what i'm thinking.
I think most of the post in my blog, when i'm writing them, it's always with some tears， not excepting now. I guess my blog name is just right. Yes, i am a positive-minded guy, i know i am too, but inside my heart, even myself, i don't know how many scars, how much hurts i have in it.
The first and most hurtful scar i ever had in my life, yes, i admit that, maybe, it was my first love, the first relationship i ever got into that serious. How hurtful is that? I don't know if any of friends or anyone else could understand it or not. But it is just really indescribable. I can only once again tell what had happened about it. You just treat my love that i gave you, just like dumping it like throwing a rubbish into a trash can. I don't know if you're happy now or not, i wanted to know, but we're just not friend anymore. Of coarse i want you to be happy, and can be back to friends like we were. Wish you happy!
I think most of the post in my blog, when i'm writing them, it's always with some tears， not excepting now. I guess my blog name is just right. Yes, i am a positive-minded guy, i know i am too, but inside my heart, even myself, i don't know how many scars, how much hurts i have in it.
The first and most hurtful scar i ever had in my life, yes, i admit that, maybe, it was my first love, the first relationship i ever got into that serious. How hurtful is that? I don't know if any of friends or anyone else could understand it or not. But it is just really indescribable. I can only once again tell what had happened about it. You just treat my love that i gave you, just like dumping it like throwing a rubbish into a trash can. I don't know if you're happy now or not, i wanted to know, but we're just not friend anymore. Of coarse i want you to be happy, and can be back to friends like we were. Wish you happy!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
End of July
There's a taiwanese drama called, 恶作剧之吻. I've been watching it for a week i think. And in that week, something came along too. I have to admit it here, i would like to tell you everything here, you really did make me happy. It's been a long time, i don't feel that happy already. Since i came here, i never feel that happy before.
I really really hope that our conversations never ends, as how sweet we were, how happy we were. And yea, this is my blog, it's really been a long time, i didn't write my blog already, even take a look of it. I just feel like want to write out everything in here, and to tell you everything also.
The first thing i wanna tell you is, i really miss you so much, i really really do. :'( I just can't ever deny it. Denying it's just like lying to myself. I really really hope that everything you said to me is true. Instead of hoping, of coarse i want them to be true. But, i really don't know. At the night when you're at the wedding dinner, remember what you did you tell me? You said: 'I don't know if it's the alcohol, but i really want you here now.' When i read this, i was really happy and touched too. And also since that night, my tears drop every night, everyday, even in the church. It's not your fault though, it's just i'm really scare, i really scare that i will hurt or lost someone who i really care about, who will ever cares about me too.
Care, i didn't feel it for a damn long time already until i met you. This is what i'm talking about. I'm really really scare. I'm really scare that you will never care about me anymore.
And about you and kuo, i'll admit it, yes, i do feel jealous. I just felt confuse that you're just still being sweet with him, but the way you treated me, it's just like we're....but although we're not, this i know. But, i just feel very confused. I feel like, 'Why?' Because you're like being sweet to 2 guys, who...you.
Okay..i have to say sorry to you. I know you'll think that i think too much, but i'm just telling what i felt. But seriously, i really miss you so much. Besides of saying the 3 words, i miss you, i don't know if i should say the another 3 words, again. I'm just scare, i guess there's an explanation in my status in facebook. Once again, i'm sorry, if this annoyed you.
I.M.Y. ♥
I really really hope that our conversations never ends, as how sweet we were, how happy we were. And yea, this is my blog, it's really been a long time, i didn't write my blog already, even take a look of it. I just feel like want to write out everything in here, and to tell you everything also.
The first thing i wanna tell you is, i really miss you so much, i really really do. :'( I just can't ever deny it. Denying it's just like lying to myself. I really really hope that everything you said to me is true. Instead of hoping, of coarse i want them to be true. But, i really don't know. At the night when you're at the wedding dinner, remember what you did you tell me? You said: 'I don't know if it's the alcohol, but i really want you here now.' When i read this, i was really happy and touched too. And also since that night, my tears drop every night, everyday, even in the church. It's not your fault though, it's just i'm really scare, i really scare that i will hurt or lost someone who i really care about, who will ever cares about me too.
Care, i didn't feel it for a damn long time already until i met you. This is what i'm talking about. I'm really really scare. I'm really scare that you will never care about me anymore.
And about you and kuo, i'll admit it, yes, i do feel jealous. I just felt confuse that you're just still being sweet with him, but the way you treated me, it's just like we're....but although we're not, this i know. But, i just feel very confused. I feel like, 'Why?' Because you're like being sweet to 2 guys, who...you.
Okay..i have to say sorry to you. I know you'll think that i think too much, but i'm just telling what i felt. But seriously, i really miss you so much. Besides of saying the 3 words, i miss you, i don't know if i should say the another 3 words, again. I'm just scare, i guess there's an explanation in my status in facebook. Once again, i'm sorry, if this annoyed you.
I.M.Y. ♥
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