Nowadays!

*Sigh* I felt very tired these days. Lack of money now. Haiz..one more lacking have already last for a long time. Lacking of love!!!! Zzz..i'm sure someone will say some words about this. But i'm really do. I know i have many frens. Sometimes i think, wat is friend? The simplest thing about friends is to care about each other rite? Yea..it is. I did it! But i don't have? I really cant feel any care-ness towards me. I've given so much care outwards! Why i didnt get some inwards? Why is tat? Face problem? ==" Mayb is. I always do. No one really understand wat i'm doing. Wat i always do, is always stupid things. No one ever see it deeply as wat i do. MMP was right. The things i act, care about others is invisible. Only if someone who really think it carefully. But who will? Never will! It's been years already. It's still same. Mayb i will keep on like this till the end of my life. Hope not to. Coz i'm really suffering. Everytime when someone ask me 'How are you?'. I'm really very happy to answer. And i'm very willing to tell all my things to him/her. Mayb someone will say tat i'm silly tat simply tell others about my things. But i've no choice. The reason is, i really have no chance to tell anyone. In class? Who can be? Hmm..i finally some closer fren in class. Eric! He's kinda good. It's been kinda close. But he'll still forget about me when going to some activity. Bcoz he have his 'brother' too. Zzz..talk about 'brother'. Where are they? 1 have gf ady, 1 is becoming secrety. Luckily there is a better one but just fatter, it's ady not too close anymore but i think is better than others? And i can felt tat he's not really like me either. As the final words i think about, i'm losing friends now. I've no longer know about the word, friends, anymore. Sometimes i feel pity for myself. Saying the truth, yea, i cried before bcoz of these things. Mayb 1 of u will say tat why wanna cry? It's jz a small things. Yea..for u. I cry bcoz i truly emphasize in friendship. For before, when i'm still young and silly. I thought of tat friendship is part of my life. Now, i'm really confusing and suffering of this topic.

Okay~ I'm done here. About this new post, gonna have to thanks to someone. Not bcoz of her, i wouldn't have write this post. After i knew tat she have a blog and read it. And i think of myself. Thank you Shelby!!! =]