Time~

Is 3 months time enough for a new relationship? As the comment of myself, it's a no. 3 months is really not enough. But as i knew it already, i really rather to have this relationship better than nothing and gone away. Actually the time i kept saying tat i really really like u, the word 'like' is actually the word 'love'. Now i do believe the chinese idioms 'yi jian zhong qing'. After the last relationship, i admit tat i really do got hurt! Therefore, i search for a better one all along the way and to find a good one as i really scare to get hurt again. Until i meet you, then i know tat you will not.
About the last relationship, i really do understand wat is happening. It's not your fault. I understood it from your behavior.
As this time, you tell me tat you dun like to be controlled by someone. This problem is same with your best fren. If u really scare this problem will make me worry, nevermind, it wont! I tried and it's ok for me. Why i say i tried? I bet u know why. Now outside there is raining, so do i. I'm really very suffering! Why is it my life is so sucks??! Or i'm really not suitable to be in a relationship? Id it's true, GOD, can you just tell me?? I'm really suffering now!
From up there, why am i saying about 3 months? Because i really dunno about next year. My parents is saying tat we cant stay here for long ady. I remember tat last year my cousin asked me tat whether i wan to leave here as soon as possible or not? And i answer: 'Yes! Of course!'. But until i meet u, i kept ask my mum about it. Can i stay at here for a longer time? The true reason is i want to wait for u!!!!!!! I discussed this with my fren, and it's ur fren too. U know who is it. She tell me tat do not ever mention about this to u. As i told u tat i will never ever lie to u, i kept this promise! I really wan u know tat i'm serious with u. I believe tat i told u tat i dislike ppl playing in love too. I really do. I hate them!! So i will never be one of them!
Until now, i really never ever feel this kind of love before. You're still better than me, u've tried for months at least. How about me? Months of lonely i believe tat i ever had.
Besides tat, i can really swear tat i will never ever be like a guy like the guy who treated you so bad. You said tat i'm different from him. Yea, i know. But the thing is u still cant differentiate between me and him. Maybe he really have something tat i dun have. And tat makes u keep thinking about it. Yea..no one ever is same and perfect. I ain't perfect and u can really say tat, i'm really a good guy.
As i mention tat i'm a good guy in front of my fren, non of them will ever say good words about it but to laugh at me. I just cant understand tat why non of them ever see my good things??! Am i really tat bad in the eyes of all of u???
At the end, i just wanna say tat, hope u can forget about tat guy as much as u can. Take your time. I will still wait for you and i love you. =)

Nowadays!

*Sigh* I felt very tired these days. Lack of money now. Haiz..one more lacking have already last for a long time. Lacking of love!!!! Zzz..i'm sure someone will say some words about this. But i'm really do. I know i have many frens. Sometimes i think, wat is friend? The simplest thing about friends is to care about each other rite? Yea..it is. I did it! But i don't have? I really cant feel any care-ness towards me. I've given so much care outwards! Why i didnt get some inwards? Why is tat? Face problem? ==" Mayb is. I always do. No one really understand wat i'm doing. Wat i always do, is always stupid things. No one ever see it deeply as wat i do. MMP was right. The things i act, care about others is invisible. Only if someone who really think it carefully. But who will? Never will! It's been years already. It's still same. Mayb i will keep on like this till the end of my life. Hope not to. Coz i'm really suffering. Everytime when someone ask me 'How are you?'. I'm really very happy to answer. And i'm very willing to tell all my things to him/her. Mayb someone will say tat i'm silly tat simply tell others about my things. But i've no choice. The reason is, i really have no chance to tell anyone. In class? Who can be? Hmm..i finally some closer fren in class. Eric! He's kinda good. It's been kinda close. But he'll still forget about me when going to some activity. Bcoz he have his 'brother' too. Zzz..talk about 'brother'. Where are they? 1 have gf ady, 1 is becoming secrety. Luckily there is a better one but just fatter, it's ady not too close anymore but i think is better than others? And i can felt tat he's not really like me either. As the final words i think about, i'm losing friends now. I've no longer know about the word, friends, anymore. Sometimes i feel pity for myself. Saying the truth, yea, i cried before bcoz of these things. Mayb 1 of u will say tat why wanna cry? It's jz a small things. Yea..for u. I cry bcoz i truly emphasize in friendship. For before, when i'm still young and silly. I thought of tat friendship is part of my life. Now, i'm really confusing and suffering of this topic.

Okay~ I'm done here. About this new post, gonna have to thanks to someone. Not bcoz of her, i wouldn't have write this post. After i knew tat she have a blog and read it. And i think of myself. Thank you Shelby!!! =]