A Lie

I just watched a movie, call Easy A. The story and main point of this movie made me think of high school life, a lot. I miss my high school life, but i'm not sure if my high school life have a good ending. Well, for what's on my mind now, it actually ended up with my father's funeral. Been thinking about it quite a lot recently. This movie gives me more images about it too. My father, i miss him a lot, sometimes i hate my life so much and put the blame on my father that why did he leave us so early. Every time i hang out with friends here, it's fun of course, lots of happiness. But as myself, my mind could think lots of things in a minute, i mean LOTS of things, like e-v-e-r-y-thing. While i'm hanging out with friends happily, lots of fun going on, my mind could stop for just a second, and became so down for another second. That is me.

Okay, back to the movie, so, this movie is about a girl, lie to everyone in her school that she lost her virginity, not intentionally. But she decided to keep it that way. With that lie, she helped a lot of other students to make lies to people for their own benefits. But things always will go wild, lies go worse and things got serious. Everyone in the school started to hate her, discriminate her. That all those are quite hurting. Here's what i think, a lie for a person, to many people, brings no benefit to the kind liar.

Back to the story of myself that i haven't finish yet. I'm always down for a second every time i hang out with friends because i realized that they are very happy, they can go shopping whenever they feel want to, don't need to work and just need to study and get good results. But i have to do everything by myself, work and study at my own. Hanging out with them, i am happy, but there is actually a lie on my face, a happy face with sadness. That has been there, always.

However, i believe that god will give me something one day. One day! God bless me! :)