低落时候的心声

我才发觉到，我做人做的很失败。其实，我早已发觉，就只是现在觉得我是真的彻底的失败！我虽然是很乐观，其实那都是在自我安慰！那…也成了习惯，坏习惯。做什么事情都是一半一半的，什么事情都只是半桶水。读书，没有心机。打篮球也只不过是半桶水。做人更不用讲，什么时候都是嘻嘻哈哈的，没有一点认真。多时候，真感觉到我不收欢迎。我这副性格，一直烦着别人，给别人弄麻烦。我这样的人，真的是只有坏没有好。好像到一个高高的地方，坐着吹风…

Memories

Just finish re-watching 小孩不笨2, it actually strongly made me thought back about my dad in the end. Almost the same moment, same scene when i last see my dad. Dad, i'm missing you so much over here. I don't know if you can see me up there, but i think god can. Hope god can tell you how much i miss you, how do i feel down here. I'm trying my best every single day to try to make more money just like you did you help mom and sister. Dad, i didn't make any promise about taking good care of mom and sister before you go, i'll promise you that i'll try my best to take good care of them. Also please forgive my disrespectful anger and behavior to them, i have my own stress and worries. You know me, i'm just like you dad, just never gonna let anyone know about my own stress and worries but think of a solution all by myself. Dad, i really realized and understand how you feel and do when you're working so hard for this family, i totally understand how does it feel now. I also understand why do you have so many vitamins or medicines on the table, most of them are for promotions and sales. Dad, i'm here saying sorry to you! I'm really sorry for being so childish and disrespectful to you. I wish i could say sorry to you face to face! Dad, you'll always be in my heart, always. I love you dad! <3

Quotes

I've been reading and saw a lot of good quotes of life from twitter. Some people may don't like it, i think one the reason may because they don't know what's the point of getting a twitter account. I didn't know too, but honestly, i made an account just to follow and want to know more about Chachi, the girl that has lots of inspiration that i admire so much. She's the first who i follow on twitter.
I've read many good and funny quotes since last night, now i know where people actually get those jokes from in facebook. I guess most of them are from funny people around the world in twitter, that actually made me laugh and also taught me some lessons too. If anyone is interested, try to follow me in twitter, @AllanKlw, i will sometimes retweet lots of funny and life quotes from other people and also some of my personal stuff. :)


❒ Single ❒ Taken ✔ Deeply in love with someone who doesn't love me.

2012 Movie List (Till June)

I am a movie lover. I love watching movies, no matter to the theater or watching at home. As long as it's a movie, i would try not to miss it :)

April 4th: Titanic
The romantic, exciting, yet sorrowful movie. It was back to over 10 years ago, when I was so little as a kid, watched this movie. I once still remember that my mum didn't let me to watch it, because there is some 18+ scene in the movie. But i didn't care, and watched it early in the morning when everyone is still asleep. Now, this movie is in Titanic. I bet everyone is looking forward to watch it in the glasses.

April 6th: The Hunter
American's Reunion
We The Party
April 13th: The Three Stooges
Lockout
Touchback
April 20th: The Lucky One(Zac Efron)
High School

May 4th: The Avengers
Dark Shadows(Johnny Depp)
The Dictator(FOSHO)
Hick
Girl in Progress
May 18th: Battleship
What to Expect When You're Expecting

May 25th: Men In Black III

June 1st: Piranha 3DD
Snow White and The Huntsman
June 8th: Prometheus
Madagascar 3: Europe's Most Wanted
June 15h: That's My Boy

June 22nd: Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter

June 29th: G.I.JOE: Retaliation

A Lie

I just watched a movie, call Easy A. The story and main point of this movie made me think of high school life, a lot. I miss my high school life, but i'm not sure if my high school life have a good ending. Well, for what's on my mind now, it actually ended up with my father's funeral. Been thinking about it quite a lot recently. This movie gives me more images about it too. My father, i miss him a lot, sometimes i hate my life so much and put the blame on my father that why did he leave us so early. Every time i hang out with friends here, it's fun of course, lots of happiness. But as myself, my mind could think lots of things in a minute, i mean LOTS of things, like e-v-e-r-y-thing. While i'm hanging out with friends happily, lots of fun going on, my mind could stop for just a second, and became so down for another second. That is me.

Okay, back to the movie, so, this movie is about a girl, lie to everyone in her school that she lost her virginity, not intentionally. But she decided to keep it that way. With that lie, she helped a lot of other students to make lies to people for their own benefits. But things always will go wild, lies go worse and things got serious. Everyone in the school started to hate her, discriminate her. That all those are quite hurting. Here's what i think, a lie for a person, to many people, brings no benefit to the kind liar.

Back to the story of myself that i haven't finish yet. I'm always down for a second every time i hang out with friends because i realized that they are very happy, they can go shopping whenever they feel want to, don't need to work and just need to study and get good results. But i have to do everything by myself, work and study at my own. Hanging out with them, i am happy, but there is actually a lie on my face, a happy face with sadness. That has been there, always.

However, i believe that god will give me something one day. One day! God bless me! :)

Life

有病的人，不一定不开心，健康的人也未必一定开心。其实世事这东西，永远都说不定，说不准。在这世上，有哪种人是不会死的！也不是说，谁比较老，谁就比较早走。有病的人，也不一定走的比没病的人早。就像我爸，在生时，不嫖不喝不赌也不抽烟，到最后，也就那样走了。这世上，充满着考验和惊喜！好的惊喜，不好的惊喜，发生在面前，唯一的选择也就只有接受。
People who are sick, not necessarily unhappy, but also to people who are healthy, may not necessarily happy。 In fact, things are always unexpectable and unpredictable. In this world, everyone will die, meet their finish line, who will not? Is not to say that who is older, will come more to leave early. Sick people, not certain to go earlier than not ill people. Just like my dad, during his whole lifetime, did not drink, did not gamble, did not smoke, but in the end, unexpected thing happened on him. This world is full of trials and surprises! Good surprises, bad surprises occur in the front, the only option, is accept.

Lucky day!

Today is the last day of school before spring break! Should be happy, but yet, have 2 midterms, no, 3 actually. But i'm just so lucky in all my exams today. So, i guess it won't be a worry for me to enjoy me spring break then? :) Why am i saying that I'm lucky in my exams, is because, for the first exams which is Sociology exam, pretty easy, i didn't really study, but it was all what my teacher talked about in the lectures. So yea... ;)
The 2nd exam, history, who likes history, i mean, need lots of memorization, but guess what? The teacher allow us to bring one of the exercise from each chapters, and i brought the right one with me, which is exactly the same topic as the essay i'll have to write. Guess i wasn't really writing, but copying :P Thank God that have such blessing of luck on me on my midterm day. <3

The Bridge of Light

Music

Once, my mum ask me, 'Why do you like to listen to the musics so loud?" i wanted to explain, but i couldn't, and ignored her. The fact is, i really couldn't explain, it's like explaining a feeling. How am i gonna explain a feeling of myself? But, i can express a little?
It's like, every time i listen to the music in a very high volume, i get to enjoy myself so much, felt so relax, stressless. It's like locking myself in an imagination room and think or do whatever you want in it. Being in the room, it's just like being in another world. A world of mine. So sometimes, when i get mad, pissed, unhappy, i'll just choose to lock myself in this room. Is the only and simple way to let myself back into normal form. lol

Once again, this whole new world i'm currently living in now, really still need some time to suit myself to be in it. I was texting with someone, i told this person that i'm gonna have my first meal of the day with you guys, it's actually dinner time. Then what i get from this person is, whatever, i'm eating now lol. Hmm..i'll just say, thanks you for asking and god bless you. :)