现在的我！

有人说我不懂得认真和珍惜。那我想说，这也很不好吧，问题是，当人家这样对我的时候，我的感觉如何？想一想吧.. :)
我可以100%的告诉你，我以前不是这样的。这代表了什么？我变了？还是另外一种方式说好了，别人影响了我，把我变成这样？
别人那样对我的时候，我可以和谁讲？跟那些对我那样的人讲吗？他们都能这样对我了，我跟他们讲，他们还会理吗？
现在的我，学会了怎么看，怎么分！真的还是假的，我都看得到，就只是看我理不理而已。我觉得是值得的，我就会去理，不值得的，睬你都傻! 如果换着是以前的我，我什么事情都会理，因为我都当我四周围的人都是朋友。
可是这里的‘朋友’， 实在是太多种了！
爱我的人，我会爱你双倍！珍惜我的人，我会更加珍惜你，而且还会保护你！ :)

好久没有大中文了，发泄一下也很爽！ =D

Care

Care, everyone know this word, know what is it exactly mean. But not everyone can exactly do it. In dictionary, it says, a feeling of worry or anxiety; something that causes problems or anxiety; to feel that something is important and worth worrying about.
Well, it's easy to read and understand what is it mean, isn't it? But to do it, it is not as easy as you read them.
I'm not trying to boast, but honestly, i'll say, i was a person who would care other people more than myself. The other people i meant is, friends. I love making new friends. That's why i have that many friends. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. But for me, i care about my friends more than everything else. Of course, myself, i would still care about.
But to who know me, you all know where i am now. I got to say, the life here, is totally different from where i am from. I do have friends here, but it's still different. No offense, but there are many new different cultures for me to learn, to suit myself at here. Also, i have to tell, i've changed after i came here. I don't know how, and i also don't know why.
The most important thing is, i don't know how to care anyone anymore. It's not that i don't want to. It's just i don't remember how anymore. I just want to to all my friends, i'm sorry. I didn't mean to treat you all like that. It was still me, the friend you knew. I love you all, as always!

Sorry

The word 'sorry', everyone says that when they made a mistake, sometimes people don't even say that and just get over it like nothing happened. But myself, 80% i would say it, it's better than i don't say it. But for this word, i don't think it recover anything. Hurts, scars, broken things?
This post is not for any definite person. This is just what i think. You agree, not agree, i wouldn't care anymore. Maybe i would, before. I'll say, i've changed. People change, depends to the positive or negative side. I don't know which side I'm going, but what i really do know is, it's not a good thing. I miss old stuffs. Who doesn't actually? I miss the old life that i can talk to someone who i call friend, to let know what's in my heart, what's my mind. I got to say, it's harder to find one to talk not even one sentence at here, whoever knows where i am. Also, it's also harder to find one even in, facebook, as people know i have over thousand of friends, but who knows, it doesn't really help much.
A normal guy trying to find an abnormal love; yet, An abnormal guy trying to find a normal love. I don't know which guy i am, but two of them have just the same difficulties.

24 Hours

It's been whole day time, 24 hours that i don't have any contact with you. I worried about you, thought of you so much! I even felt like you're trying to avoid from me, please tell me that you're not. =( I'm begging you please don't. I know everything is just too fast. I felt like that too. I just scare to lose someone i liked/loved again. You know? You're like a hard 10, and i'm like a 6 to you. I screwed up when you're emo, deducted 1 point, don't really know how to make you happy, deducted 1 point, reply something that's not for me, try to become a 'senka lin', deducted 1 point, not even a good friend that can be beside you whenever you need someone, deducted 1 point. :( They say that someone can't jump more than 3 points. I'm just 4 points away. I'm really scare. I'm really scare that you will never care me anymore :( But the only thing i hope the most is of course that you can be happy all the time. Peace! =)